Something I wrestle with is my salvation. I think its something everyone will and should think about somewhere along in their walk with Christ. We're also commanded to do so in various places in the Bible.
Philippians 2:12 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling
2 Peter 1:10a Therefore, brothers, be all the more diligent to confirm your calling and election...
At the root of why I'm wrestling with making my salvation sure is because I have doubts about God's word. Not that I don't believe God or that He is God, but I doubt sometimes that He'll do it for me or that He'll impart His promises to me. To help myself trust God more, I'm making this blog to write down the things He's done for me personally and then I'll be able to look back on it and remember what He's done so I can praise Him for it. (This task is recorded all throughout the psalms and especially in Exodus)
Often times I can feel my heart become hardened and I get distressed over certain things. This is all because I don't trust that God has saved me and that I don't trust that if He has that He's actually working all things for good. I get distressed over certain things I wish would happen and I think is what's best for me, but it might not be what truly is best for me.
But I just prayed a little while ago (before I started writing this) that my heart wouldn't be hardened and that I would have a soft heart (as I could feel it becoming hard). Soon after I prayed, God brought comfort to my heart and I felt the bitterness and hardness of my heart begin to fade. God took my heart and made it sensitive to His word (meaning that scripture started coming to mind to shatter that hardness of my heart) and He allowed me to feel the comfort and love that only He gives. To God be the glory for great things He has done.
"Is not My word like fire?" declares the LORD, "and like a hammer which shatters a rock?"
Jeremiah 23:29
God's words are a fire that warm the spirit and a hard hitting hammer that shatters even the hardest of hearts.
